When Your Heart Gets Hardened...

I am a pretty emotional person. I feel other people's pain and want nothing more than to help someone in need. I am an excellent listener and always try to encourage people. It's not limited to my family or close friends, I feel that way for everyone. I cry at stories I see on TV, I've prayed for people I don't even know.

There's someone in my life right now who is on the brink of...well, their life is pretty much a complete mess. Their marriage is over, the relationship that they were in since their separation is over, their business is closing, they are broke and they've pretty much isolated most the people who truly cared about them and sent them away. I know for me, personally, it's been about a year since we've spoken - though I've reached out several times, I've been turned away at every opportunity.

So last night a I get a call from a mutual acquaintance who tells me all of this person's woes and I'm told that they're suicidal. I'm not sure I'm buying that one; I mean, some people enjoy being drama queens and this situation that this person is in was brought on by nobody but themselves. It's kind of hard to feel sorry for someone who continually screws up their own lives. I guess my issue is with me. My heart. I'm being told that someone that I love is devastated and suicidal and I felt nothing. No tears, no sympathy, nothing. I was annoyed that I was even having to hear about their complaints.

Something's seriously wrong here. With me...I hate to think that my heart has gotten so hardened that I don't care if someone dies or not. No, there's definitely something wrong here...